Tuesday, March 13, 2012

A week full of emotions.

My heart feels twisted with lots of emotions.
Am down with flu & fever, which cause headache. 
Feels like breaking down, feels like laughing out.
Feels like giving up on everything, feels like doing everything on my own.

I love to help people, but only people who deserved to be helped. 
I mean, at least shows that you're interested and willing to learn. 
I hate those cant-be-bother attitude.
I know my limit, I know when to slack & when to get to work.
When I slacks & indulge myself, I can go wild. 
When I get to work, I am pretty determine to get what's unclear clear and whatever doubts cleared.
I am someone who is very extreme, either it's all positive or all negative.
I give my best, or I dont give at all.
I hate being neutral. 


I really got to start doing some reflection about myself.
I am giving myself one whole day to clear my mind. 
After tomorrow , I will need to get my mind straight ! 

Regards.

Monday, March 5, 2012

我好怕我把我的 “好时” 用完了, 以后怎么办?

Life is pretty good being me, except for some huge attack that makes me fall badly.
Since young, I met people who dotes on me, who loves me , who are real to me. 
I dare not say all, but most. 
Of cos I met some which didnt end up well with me, 
I cant probably have everyone to love me right. 

As time goes by, I still meet nice and great people who are helping me in life. 
Today, everyone make me feel loved. 
Seriously.
In Alpha, I met all nice mentors. 
They are extremely nice and gentle. 
Some just make me feel so comfortable. 
(Maybe it's just for today. )
Praise the Lord for letting me meet nice people in my life. 
I definitely love them to stay on and guide me through.

I hope I have more when I am in working life. 
I hope my good quota can last me the whole life. 
I know I have a good life, I dont want to suffer in future. 

Show your love to your loves ones, you may not know how much it meant deep down.
Regards.

Friday, March 2, 2012

Finally ~ I got my license ~

After 4 months of await. 
I finally got hold of my license ! 


I took :
BTT : 1
FTT : 2 
TP : 1, with 6 points.

Had a total of 18road lessons + 2 bbdc circuit lessons.
Spend about $1400 +/- , includes registration $100 with my private instructor.
$300 for TP ( Car rental) + warm-up . 

So now I gonna post a long one.. 

My instructor booked my TP on 1st March. 
I was nervous since 24th Feb... Been google-ing about TP and all.
I personally mount kerb 4 times during warm-up, I am mad nervous...
My instructor got damn pissed off with me , black face... 

I booked my TP at 4.30pm BBDC, Thursday. 
Procedures :

After warm-up, my instructor bought me up to the waiting room. 
Right at next to the door of the waiting room is a small box, placed my particulars( IC, PDL) inside.
Your tester would have the test route ready with them. & Your tester will pick you, not you picking them.
I sat in the room since 4.15pm. 
Having 15 testee waiting inside... 
7 females & 8males.( You will know why I emphasize on this ! )


At 4.20pm, you will hear testers and previous slot testee coming into the room, at another corner, for their results. 
So for my case, tester came calling your name then you follow him out. 
I was the third one to be called and went off at 4.25pm.
Tester told me to start my engine ...
My voice was shivering when I replied. 
I took off, and all he does was " Turn left 4, turn right 25, turn left at 10 etc .. "
All tester got the poker face and mono tone...
Damn scary , it's impossible to overcome it i think . 
But as long as you still do it well, your tester will pass you !

Many people said that 4.30pm slot will be very packed and many huge vehicles. blah blah blah.
Makes me nervous like mad.
But for that day, it was after a heavy rain, bbdc circuit was pretty empty about 8 cars with 3 testing cars.
At 4.40pm, I was out to the road. 
I am going on route 1, similar to route 6/8 .
Which my instructor brought me to that route right before test ! :)
So I did pretty well on road, just that I was thinking how I should drive pass this old uncle cycling in my lane.
He was really making my life hard. 
You know, he is old, I was so afraid that I would knock him by accident or anything.
So when it was red light, I stopped right next to him. 
& he saw I was taking a test.
But still ride slowly next to me ):
But I still manage to overcome my fear and drive passed him ! 

Tester didnt say anything. ..
& what he said throughout the 10mins outside on road.
" Turn left, Turn left, After Traffic light turn left, turn left, turn left, turn back to the school after the traffic light "
He was scribbling on his notebook all the time, inside and outside circuit.
At first I was so afraid and was thinking " Dead, he cant stop writing on his notebook. "
So he told me to wait in the waiting room & he went into his office ! 

This is the time that pass by slowest ! 
The 20-30mins of test, just pass by like a blink of an eye.
But these 5 mins of waiting is like 30mins ! 
I seat next to a guy and his tester came.
He didnt do quite well
 and the tester said " See you again, Try again next time. It's not that I want to fail you but it's my responsibility to ensure that drivers passed from me doesn't cause a threat on road. "
What he just said makes me more nervous and I was wondering what take my instructor so long ! 
So when he came out, he walked towards me and says " you must ... .... "
I just keep staring at the paper he put infront of me.. 
I was so happy as I only commit 3 mistakes and each cause me 2 marks ! 
He then said "Congratuations, you can go out there and make your license then go down and watch the graduation video. " 
I thanked him and can't stop smiling, he said " I didnt do anything, you did it well ~ " 

I applied for my license , which costs another $50 . Worth it ! :)
It will be mail to me within a month.. 
But currently I will be able to drive as we are given a acknowledgement letter.

To side track abit : 
My heart really sank in when I mount kerb during warm up. 
My instructor even shouted at me and asked me what I was doing. 
However, this proves that as long as you can focus on it, you can do it ! 
Concentrate is one of the key, confidence plays a small part too. 
Told my instructor I passed with 6points, he said " 6points, really ?! very good. " 
hahah.. 
I also called his boss , another instructor that next taught me before but was very nice to me on phone when I book lessons. 
He called me up before the test to calm me down and say dont nervous can pass one ! 
And ask me to call him back after test, so I did and he was so glad and happy for me ! 
So many nice people around me :) heh.

So I went down for the graduation video.
There are only 6 passes in my time slot (out of the 15)
& I am the only female ! HAPPIER, proud ! :D


 From 8/11/11 - 1/3/12 ! :D 4months ! 
 My PDL ~ 
 The result slip ~ 
 License fee.

Same paper as the previous photo, which indicate that I can drive now !

That pretty much all ..
Let's go vroom vroom now.
Regards.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Chances

Sometimes, things don't wait for you.
but sometimes things do.


Few days back, I went passed the charity-road-singers.
But I am racing with the time ... 
I knew I wont feel at ease.
Still, I went off without doing anything. 
I just can't feel peace, something was just missing.
I went back to where I heard them, gave a small token of heart.

I stood by the side, to enjoy..
Notice many people paused for a while and continues with their life. 
Some stopped and watched.
Little contribute to the box though.


Maybe next time, when you pass by those charitable box, fill them up with your heart.
Amount is never the issue, it's the heart.