Sad T.T

I decided not to bitch about what happened in the morning .. 

 Reached School at 8am  ..
Went over to sports complex, have lesson on basic Rugby .
Play a CaptainRugby  .
Changed go for Idea Jumpstart.
Did some Rollercoast model ..
End, MakanPlace for Lunch :D
Complaining to JM & Norman, poor ears of theirs.




I feel so sad whenever people mind to make friend with me becos of my appearance ): 

Actually most of my friend didnt intend to make friend with me at the first sight, eventually they have to make friend with me & we're like glued so its hard to reject me, this friend anymore. 

I met a couple of people who arent my friend as they mind about how I am looking and all.. I felt sad, sad becos I cant meet their expectation . Sad becos they had lost a friend, a friend that will be there for them , whenever they need me. They may had lots of beautiful & good looking friends but they will never find a second person exactly like me . Not saying I am so good or great, but trying to say there isnt 2nd mandy. They may find better people than me but yes,  not exactly me . 

My heart aches so much as I knew they didnt really want to make friend with me but I still go and try to be friend with them . Is like I knew they would not want to be friend with me , but still i wan to give it a try . I think I deserved to be hurt & feel sad . 明明就知道，但是还要自找麻烦。。。

I will get over it very fast, friends know well. 

I am actually very happy, cos I am someone who got limited friends. But thanks to my BFFs, they are attractive people, they attract lots of friends. So most of their friends will need to be my friend , as in they have to , not that they want but need . So yes... Some may be denying but well, i know it myself . 

Oh, like what i said, this door closes another opens . 

God gives me attractive BFFs which make friend with me cos I am super irritating, haha. So people who's appearances freak will be marked down by me & then i will bitch about this person to BFFs. HHAHAHA, I win :) You gave me two knife in my heart , I send you 4knife on ur head . 

One more thing , we could find friends in poly but not any more BFFs . I am so afraid about them now, cos I FR-ed & feel their words from my heart, I judged them . They acted like some angels . 3years, please pass fast .

* They arent reading my blog, those that did & was my polymates, no worries if i am talking to you & joking with you, cos you arent the one I am talking about. *

  I seldom talk to people i hate .

Feel scared & numb with the current situation , bet i will get use to it damn fast . 

Regards . 

XXXX