我在也不会让自己难过了。。

Today.School ended. I met up with Gh & Crystal, had Sumo House. 

Chill , then Crystal went off. 

On my way to interchange, there's a uncle which is not physically fit( disable, wheelchair-user ) 

He is trying to get to the bus stop, however there are some boundaries as the land beside cityvibe is under construction now ... he wanted to cross over, however, there is a blockage . & he is left alone, no one went forward to help despite the crowd ( So pissed about reality . ) 

I went to ask if he needed help he said " I couldnt cross, there is a blockage . "

& he told me he need to get to the bus stop in order to go home. 

So i said, " why not try the longer way. "

I told him the direction, followed closely behind him . 

He rejected my help in pushing him up the slope .. 

He told me " Its okay, I will give it a try first . " 

I watched him up the slope slowly, watching him catching his breathe..

He reached the top, thanked me . Saying that he is doing fine. 

Reached the front of Cityvibe

( if anyone knows, there is a temporary walkpath make of woods currently& there is a few wood humps ) . 

I offer my help again, rejected. 

He said " I would give it a try first. "

He tried his best, some passerby also offered to help, willingly( Glad) . 

He manage to get through all these and board the bus. 

 I am happy that I gave up some times for something useful & someone who is worthy.
( Not boasting )  

I wanted to say that .. 

Life is already hard, for a perfectly great in health human like us .. 

However, life is harder for people who are not very good in health compared to us ..

Yet they could face the world, face the fact . 

They are proving that they can definitely live a better life then us.

A better mindset, a better living . 

When I no longer have someone who know my everything. 

When I no longer think that I should give more. 

I can tell you, I give up. 

For the first time, i felt that i gave up on this.  I think twice.

I give up a quarter of my hopes. 

For the second time, you make me feel that I should give up. I said " I decided to just ignore and give up. " But i cant bring myself to do so.. 

I gave up another quarter of my hopes.

For the third time, I promised, promised to give up on you. But your words melted my heart.

I gave up yet, another quarter of my heart.

Now, I am left with only a quarter of it, would you please make sure you dun make me lose all these ? I seriously cant bring myself to get this over . Never want it to end, but you left me with no choice.

Still, I think you got no idea how you make me lose my hopes .. 

I choose to give up bits by bits, cos i believe you understand me. 

Regards ..

XOXO