1 more step ....

People : Never turn back, carry on your journey .. Walk in front, walk to the future. 

1 more step, I am able to be happier.. 

Everyone says its easy .. But its never to me . Cos everyone is not me, not me ... 

Never to forget, there's a saying, 1 step in front may be 3 step backwards. 

Mandy Lim , 勇敢的向前去， 天塌下来 就当被来盖。
( Mandy Lim, be brave move forward, even if the sky falls take it as a blanket ) 

Still , I know I wont do it ... 

Sometimes I ask myself, why ? why do i always take a second look at people .. 

Why do i even feel sad for them, why do i even care about them ..
( passerby, acquaintance, or anyone. )

It just hurts so much , though it doesnt concern me, so much so that I felt so helpless thinking about it ... 

How do i measure life ? Measure happiness ? 

I dun know. 

I think i gave my life a 75/100. Happiness ? I still cant measure, cos i noe i have more happiness then sadness, but i would rather give up some of my happiness to change for my small little imperfect sadness that is with me . But everything happened for a reason, i know , i believe... 

But staring at someone who has 99/100 for his life, a small percentage of defects, still he leads a better life . Happiness wise, he may have a higher percentage of sadness than happiness but it's all manageable .

We are all given different type of challenge in life . 

No matter what it is, everyone can manage it . 

Lord will never leave us totally helpless, he would open the nest door / window . 

I always compare the type of challenge i had to others ... normally compare myself to the ones who has lighter challenge :/ 

It may seems lighter and easier for me, but to them it's the hardest things they ever face. 

So ... that means I have a stronger heart, a stronger mindset .. 

It seems good to you huh ?! But to me , im easily tired with it . 

Tired with my own strong mind ... 

Regards. 

XOXO