It's scaring me );

I've stop my eyes from weeping.. I woke up in the eyes of tears, I had a dream. I dream that Dummy is in the house of a mum's friend. I was in the house too, i called from Dummy, yes he came forward but stop halfway when my mum's friend called for him with a nicer name. I tried again & again he just stop at a point & never step forward anymore. So I carried him up, and said goodbye before leaving the house. But when I left Dummy was at the gate barking. But still I went out of the house weeping. I woke up after that, the corners of my eyes are wet, wet by my tears. I told Caren, as she's the only one who could reply me as she's studying. After telling Caren, mummy is home.

She bought lunch for me and then she said " I saw Dummy, with a auntie. " This auntie is a neighbourhood friend, she told everyone that the Dog(DUMMY) was bought by her daughter. My mum went forward and says ' Isnt this my lost dog? I just lost it yesterday. " The auntie screams at my mum saying " So you see every white dog is yours ? ( in chinese ) " Dogs are loyal, they will regconize you. So Dummy jumps on my mum's lap. & the auntie replied " Yah, this dog is very friendly. He likes to jump on people's lap. "

I was weeping again after mum told me, its like damn ridiculous lah.

It's my dog le, how could she.. Mummy told her friends about it, Uncle William says

wanna give me a small dog, no idea the breed. But dun Mummy get what I meant? Why am I crying, becos dummy is in our house like 1 year plus, how could you let it go so fast? fuck.

Mummy even says " Dummy was looking at me with a very upset face. " Yes, I can imagine. Dogs are loyal, Dummy knows he will never be back in myhouse, my room anymore.

Do you find me very ridiculous? Do you think i came up with this? Its okay if you dun believe me. 'cos i know, it myself. Bffs know what I mean, 'cos some things I would have dream of before its happening.

Im really scared of myself, my thoughts. I once dreamt of me dying in the lift with some mates & i had another dreamt that said i died in the car accident but manage to send buddies my last farewell through msg. Why do i have weird dreams. _l_

I have to bring my red swollen eyes to work.

Regards.